As many of you will already know, our house burnt yesterday. This was a shocker, and pretty devastating when we got the news. I just thought, "Lord, what are You doing? I can't take much more!" By afternoon and after a lot of tears, I was beginning to think, "Lord, what are You up to?" (In a much more expectant and hopeful way) Perhaps because we are dealing with life and death issues with Jethro, perhaps because none of the children were in danger, perhaps because there may be some salvageable things from the house, perhaps because of all those things, I am on a pretty even keel as far as the loss of the house goes. Don't misunderstand me, I am grieving the loss of our home...and the precious things within it ~ things that have been handed down through the family, things that cannot be replaced, but in the grand scheme of things, they are just that, things. I am confident that God will provide for us. I do not know how exactly, but I know He will.
The folks in our community are already showing us an outpouring of love and care, and we are so deeply grateful ~ we just don't know how we need help at the moment. Having never gone through anything like this, we are still trying to get our bearings and figure out what the next step is.
The kids are doing okay. Kathleen was heart-broken over the loss of her birds, but I just let her cry until she was done. It's hard when you're nine, and your pets die in a fire. Thankfully, the little boys are too little to really comprehend what's going on.
Jethro is doing well for the most part. They did MRI's yesterday and today and basically took pictures of his entire body, looking for clots or evidence of strokes. The only clot they found was the one they knew he had in his heart. They did however, find a bleed on his brain. This could complicate how they are going to deal with the clot. They will do another CT scan tomorrow to see if the bleed has grown. If it has, they will have to stop giving him blood thinners (which they have been using to try to reduce the clot), and he will likely have to have another open heart surgery to remove the clot.
Our prayer requests would be:
- That the bleed has not grown and the clot has reduced in size. Negating the need for another surgery so soon after the first.
- There are some things possibly happening as far as the house is concerned. Pray that God would make the way clear before us. We do not want to push or make assumptions, we just want to stay out of the way and let God do what He will do.
- Please pray for the other kids. Losing your home is a pretty devastating thing ~ especially when you've been looking forward to the day everyone will be home together. Now, by the time we have a home again, both Levi and Will will be out of it and gone. My Mama's heart might need some prayer in that area as well.
- His provision and protection over our family. It is very sobering to think that that might have happened when there were children at home. I am sooo thankful that I didn't have to worry about the safety of any of them, while wondering if the house was burning to the ground.
- Jethro doing as well as he is. Even with the setbacks, in the grand scheme of things, Jethro is recovering quite well. Not bad for a baby who wasn't supposed to make it very long!
- 3 precious, beautiful weeks with Jethro. I can't believe he's 3 weeks old already, and everyday with him is truly a miracle.
- precious items that weren't lost in the fire. God protected Tucker's baby book, and most of the other photo albums. Some of the heirloom rings I have and my wedding set were spared even though they were in the heat of the fire.